weird strange feelings, odd ends and beginnings.I've been in the oddest mood latley. Not neccessarily a bad mood but odd. I'm happy, i love my boyfriend, i'm happy in my life, i like my new friendships...i'm missing something. i do miss old friendships, maybe that's it...i'm confused. work is going okay, i work alot especially this week but my hours are pretty cool. I love "Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind" it's one of my fav movies ever im watching again right now for the 100th time. Clemintine reminds me so much of myself it's almost uncanning. I would never go and erase the memories of my boyfriend but it's so crazy how their relationship mimics ours and in so many ways we do and say the same things...weird. John watched it with me last night and all he could do was laugh at the little things the character "Clemintine" does and says in the movie...me i've seen the movie before but not since we've been together...i just sat their frozen...laughing occasionally at the way they behaved together...just WEIRD. i feel like im living in a movie this morning all i can think about is how strange that is. I love us.
so this weekend i work but im gonna try to escape early b/c it's Justin's birthday and it's my brother's i have to make time somehow...especially since i planned Justin's i cant nOt be there.
me and john never agree on what women are beautiful in movies and such ...the woman he thinks are beautiful are kind of "odd" beautiful...we hardly ever agree on those things. he always says im the most beautiful girl hes ever seen...i wonder if that makes me "odd" beautiful. people say that to me alot...and im not being "conceided" i just wonder if they say it because im "odd" beautiful...okay that sounded weird, nevermind. John also says he hates blonde so i dyed my hair the color he picked out a few months ago(wich has some blonde in it)...but he likes Charlize Theron. maybe i'll go back blonde.
ill be around later.
_"i could die right now, im that happy...ive never felt that way before...im just exactly where i want to be."_
weird mood, definetly.
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